Emotional Healing. Child of an alcoholic. Young adult depression. Inspiration.

I was once told by a wise woman that emotions are a strong force to be reckoned with. They breathe their own life and have their own destructive force. If one does not allow their emotions both happy and sad to escape and feel acknowledged, they will eat away at the life they live in. My journey in life has been a road filled with many peaks of happiness and many valleys of depression. But through it all I have held those words of wisdom with me. I have always found it easy to release my anguish, my depression, my sadness, and my happiness to those around me who love me and to my best friends “pad and paper.”

With this blog I hope to inspire others to write their emotions on paper, let the forgiving page hear all the words of hurt, pain, contentment, joy. With this blog I hope to inspire myself to forgive all that hurts in my life, to let go of old grudges and to grow, from the inside out.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Again and Again and Again

For as long as I can remember I have know the words “recovering alcoholic” or the phrase “he’s ___ years sober.” When I was younger, these words had no effect on me, and they didn’t start to have significant meaning in my life till about 5 years ago when a new phrase was introduced into my life “he fell off the wagon.” Since that day my roller coaster of life has had more loops, ups, downs, and turns than the newest attraction at Magic Mountain. At the time I thought it’s going to be no problem for him to beat this again, he was successful once, I thought, there’s no reason he couldn’t do it again. And I still believe that he can, I just wasn’t expecting it to be this much work or take such a toll on my life.

For every five people walking down the street two of those individuals have lived with or are currently living with an alcoholic. And I’m sure I’m not the only one who has had the love for someone to hope and be so sure that they can change. Have you ever had such faith that after a relapse they could recover and be the person you know them to be with out the alcohol?


  1. Erica,
    It is wonderful to see you beginning this journey. I know it will change your life: enhance it, give you strength, joy, peace. Congratulations!!

  2. I think that this blog serves a much needed purpose, a place to be heard and a place to heal. I am looking forward to your insight and hope others will share their stories because we are not alone on this journey of life. L

  3. Jules Renard once said " As I learn to understand life less and less, I learn to live it more and more". Let the Journey begin!

  4. Dear Dad.
    I can hardly remember your first stay in rehab, I was too young to really know what was going on. I can only recolect being so happy to see you on family day, being so excited to hug you and feeling so safe in your arms. Dad, I dont know why you started drinking again but i know you, and i know you beat this once and i know that you will do it again.

    Love you