Emotional Healing. Child of an alcoholic. Young adult depression. Inspiration.

I was once told by a wise woman that emotions are a strong force to be reckoned with. They breathe their own life and have their own destructive force. If one does not allow their emotions both happy and sad to escape and feel acknowledged, they will eat away at the life they live in. My journey in life has been a road filled with many peaks of happiness and many valleys of depression. But through it all I have held those words of wisdom with me. I have always found it easy to release my anguish, my depression, my sadness, and my happiness to those around me who love me and to my best friends “pad and paper.”

With this blog I hope to inspire others to write their emotions on paper, let the forgiving page hear all the words of hurt, pain, contentment, joy. With this blog I hope to inspire myself to forgive all that hurts in my life, to let go of old grudges and to grow, from the inside out.

Thursday, March 29, 2012

Involuntary Insecurities

There’s something sad to be said about a person whose insecurities overpower their compassion, a person whose selfishness overshadows their friendships. In my life I have had my fair share of encounters with these people. They come in all shapes and sizes from the boy in school who laughed at your expense, to the girl who you thought was a friend but liked your boyfriend more than she liked you. We are surrounded by these people in our lives and we even are them from time to time. They have an uncanny ability to hurt us, belittle us and pass their insecurities on to us. And I personally am sick of it. I hate wondering if I need to worry about if I’m cool enough. Or feeling anxious every time someone texts him, wondering if she’s still trying to get with him. I hate it all, and I don’t want to be a part of it. We all have our insecurities in life; even the most confident person has a glimmer of self-doubt. And as soon as we can accept that about ourselves, and stop being catty and going behind each others backs we can truly change our worlds. Why would you want to inflict your pain on someone else for your own gain? And let’s face it; we never gain much when we do that. You end up making your self look like a villain and loose people who could truly be close to you. I hope we can all learn from our past experiences, at one point or another we’ve all been hurt and all hurt someone. And I think it can end now. To all those out there that have gone behind my back, made snide remarks or try to humiliate me I forgive you. And to those that I have put in this situation I am sorry. I hope that this can reach some fraction of the world out there and maybe we can see a difference in our lives.