Emotional Healing. Child of an alcoholic. Young adult depression. Inspiration.

I was once told by a wise woman that emotions are a strong force to be reckoned with. They breathe their own life and have their own destructive force. If one does not allow their emotions both happy and sad to escape and feel acknowledged, they will eat away at the life they live in. My journey in life has been a road filled with many peaks of happiness and many valleys of depression. But through it all I have held those words of wisdom with me. I have always found it easy to release my anguish, my depression, my sadness, and my happiness to those around me who love me and to my best friends “pad and paper.”

With this blog I hope to inspire others to write their emotions on paper, let the forgiving page hear all the words of hurt, pain, contentment, joy. With this blog I hope to inspire myself to forgive all that hurts in my life, to let go of old grudges and to grow, from the inside out.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Juxstaposing Journeys

I found myself writing this on a to go menu for Panera and that makes me happy because its been a while since my words and thoughts couldn’t be contained until I go to a computer or proper pen and paper. Maybe my pizzazz for writing is returning. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.

Do you ever wonder how different your life would be if you had made a left at the fork in the road instead of a right? Would you have full tattoo sleeves and nipple piercings? Or would you play polo and sip afternoon sangria at the country club? Have you ever thought about what decisions in your life have led you to be where you are and who you are now? Recently this is something that I’ve been pondering, a tangent that I’ve allowed myself to wander down. And it’s an interesting journey to see where your life might be had you made your choices differently. I wonder if I would be starting my own family in some alternate universe, or if I’d already be working on my Masters degree.  As I go down all of the hypothetical roads I begin to wonder who it would be in my life that I would be missing out on had my journey been different, and that thought alone halts any further day trips down
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I can’t even begin to imagine an existence with out some of the key players in my life. There’s my loveably goofy best friend who has changed my life so much, been my sounding wall and occasional cheer leader. Or my peculiarly amazing love with out whom I feel I’d be a very different person, he’s taught me to love myself, and how to open up to others. I don’t care if my life style would be better or classier in my alternate universe, I can’t image trading my friends and family for any other way of life. So I guess, as interesting as it may be to imagine things differently I am happy with all of my decisions just as they are, because they’ve helped shape me and give me the many amazing people that I am so fortunate to call my friends and family. I love you all.